Becoming baby
The Brief summary of Baby Bunny Little on Pacifying check out on YouTube and on the podcast feed.
The Journey of Baby Little
(she/her) @stoner.babycore on social media
Introduction and Background
Baby Little is known through social media with previous pseudonyms associated with her online presence as Vampers, UnpottyTrained, or as now across social media platforms @stoner.babycore, include X (formerly known as twitter) and Instagram among others. She has been active member of the ABDL community online for over a decade with her growth she has become an influencer in the ABDL community online something she recognised herself. She strives to be a positive role model by spreading kindness and promoting the message of getting along with everyone.
Previous Podcast Experiences
Before we dived deeper into the themes of what we’ve been chatting about in this podcast interview her past experiences of other podcasts. This podcast wasn’t her first after being interviewed multiple occasions often on the same topic. Those topics have included the concept of Baby’s journey to un-potty training myself. I've discussed in detail the emotional and physical ramifications of being incontinent or diaper dependent in the long term. This entailed covering aspects of the costs of being diaper dependent and the maintenance of what it means to embracing this factor of being an adult baby. Also, addressing whether I would recommend it to others. However, this interview was podcast different; it was a more varied, allowing Baby to feel more relaxed and explore a broader range of topics.
Living with Autism and Incontinence
On how Baby becamee incontinent and pursued un-potty-training, Baby is have autistic and with being autistic has poor interoception which can be disabling by the neurological sensory processing difference defined by recognising signals from your body. Interoception is the body's way of relaying signals to the brain about needs like hunger, thirst and knowing when you need to go to the toilet. Baby’s poor interception means she is unable to recognise when she needs to discharge by excretion and urination.
This looks like for Baby, is she isn’t capable of knowing when I need to go to the bathroom and has waited until it was too late which lead to frequent accidents. Now she is diaper dependent and medically incontinent. From interviewing Ley Ley this could be a neurodegenerative bladder.
But before, when Baby was young her mother, due to financial constraints and a belief that she could manage without wearing diapers, didn’t provide them for me. This meant that for the frequent accidents Baby had no protection to a medical aid she indeed required. A challenging childhood filled with accidents and the shame that came with them.
While Baby could understand why her mother made the choices she did, ‘it’s something I still wish could have been different.’
Fast forward to adulthood, and during the pandemic, with financial support and encouragement from her mother to manage to have the autonomy and independence to decide how she dealt with or medicated her incontinence. She decided to go 24/7 with diapers. ‘My autonomy to make this decision has given me control over my situation, even if it meant relinquishing physical control.’
Autistic Identity and Comorbidities
My autistic identity is multifaceted. With other co-morbid neurodivergent conditions having bipolar disorder, which affects my moods and decision-making, and antisocial personality disorder (ASPD), which impacts my empathy. Despite the low empathy from ASPD, my autism helps me choose compassion. She also has ADHD. She is unmedicated for ADHD and sees herself as the definition of the co-morbid neurotype commonly referred to as AuDHD. ‘I have had time to understand how these intersecting conditions shape my life.’
Navigating Relationships and Caregiving
My boyfriend, who Baby refer to as ‘Daddy’, gives me the love, care and affection that I need but not always had. I can regress and disassociate safely which is a mark of trust to be in such a vulnerable state. ‘The care he provides gives to process heavy traumas and daily stress, making our bond even stronger.’
Their relationship is unique through Baby’s asexuality which removes any sexual expectations from a relationship with Daddy who Baby has a romantic relationship with but he still her primary care giver who often is the person who helps wash her, change her diaper, feed her and read her stories where in her caring role there is a paternalistic relationship of the care that is provided and evident with the names they both inhabit and use Baby and Daddy. Baby confessed to something that is rare that she involuntarily regresses to the state of a new born baby. Her level two autism is a proponent to her regression.
We established our relationship based on mutual understanding and respect for each other's needs. If you're in a similar dynamic, it's crucial to be honest, respect boundaries, and let the relationship evolve organically.
On the week that the interview with Baby was published across YouTube and podcasting platforms Baby for pride month came out as diaper sexual in which she describes as a niche intersection within the asexuality umbrella where sexual pleasure is central to the use of wearing diapers irrelevant to the attraction to the partner. It is seems as a barrier of touch and physical contact to genitalia as she describes ‘as for genitalia keep it in the pamps’.
This maybe something that is stigmatised and will be misunderstood but padding from the diapers could make someone feel more safe and comfortable in areas of pleasure. This I wish to emphasise that this describes activities between consenting adults where neither is harmed or is harming others.
Trans Identity: The signs of being transgender from a young age and coming out
Understanding her gender identity was a critical part of story journey. she knew from a young age that ‘I wasn't a boy; whenever I regressed, I was always a girl.’ This consistent feeling helped Baby understand and eventually come out as trans. Though the journey was fraught with challenges, including bullying, it ultimately helped me embrace her true self.
Living with Chronic Fatigue and Autism Burnout
Living with autism and its associated burnout has its challenges. ‘Chronic fatigue means some days I can do very little other than rest.’ Where Daddy’s help is most needed. Baby’s therapist noted that her burnout might be so advanced that she'll never fully recover, and ‘my primary task is to manage it as best as I can.’ she notes.
Comfort and Coping Mechanisms
Comfort for Baby involves being in a safe, soothing environment. She admits that she is stoner in a state of the United States of America where the use of cannabis is legalised, smoking legal variants of cannabis like Delta 8 to calm my overactive mind. Activities like watching YouTube, reading ABDL fiction, and listening to music help Baby in her my daily life, especially on days when chronic fatigue limits activities.
Embracing Incontinence and Diaper Dependence
Becoming diaper dependent has been a mixture of giving up control to gain control. Telling people ‘I'm incontinent and in need of protective undergarments is just a fact of my life, one I embraced to manage my condition better. This acceptance and honest communication have allowed me to live more comfortably and feel more in control of my life.’
- Baby Little on Pacifying with Autisticly Aar as edited by Aar Jae Williams
